March 13, 1663

Diary

So I have been this monster for a month now. For the first 3 weeks I was disgusted by myself more than anyone could possibly imagine. I hated myself so much for what I have become. I even went to the measures of trying to kill myself. The first thing I tried was to drown myself. This had no effect what so ever. It only taught me that vampires do not need to breath. So the next way I tried was by jumping off a cliff. To my astonishment every single way I threw myself off I landed on my feet, without a scratch. Another way I tried was by going out into the sunlight, hoping I would burst into flames. Yet the only thing that happened was that I started to sparkle like glitter. The final way I decided to try was by starvation. The only thing that did was make my hunger for blood that much more consuming. The only way I could control the severe blood lust was by hiding in a cave far away from humans.

To my surprise I have found a way to survive without taking human life. Instead of feeding on humans, I feed on animals. I found this out a week ago when a pack of wild deer came across the cave I was hiding in. Lucky for me the blood satisfied me long enough to clear my head. I now know that I do not have to be a total monster and am able to live off of animal blood. So I will try this out and see how it works for me. Well, I’m starting to get thirsty again so I am going to go see if I can find any more animals to feed on. So till next time.

-Carlisle